I know everyone is excited to say good bye and good riddance to 2020, but………I’m one of “those” people who like to do the year in review–good, bad, & ugly. Why you might ask? It’s because that’s how we gain wisdom. We learn from our mistakes, failures, fears, successes, and our unaccomplished dreams that we promised ourselves we would pursue last New Years Eve. A year is a gift from GOD, so I feel a bit somber when recollecting on how I embraced that gift. It’s a time of truthful contemplation for me. YIKES! Most times I have fallen way short of what I was capable of– mainly because I allowed fear to dominate my thoughts and actions and stop me from my destiny; however, if there is one thing 2020 taught me it’s that fear and faith can not coexist, and the “year of Covid” was nothing short of fear. 2020 was NOT a year of vision, but a year of something a bit more sinister–an invisible entity that we allowed to take away the joy of living. We permitted the supposed cure to be worse than the disease. Hello isolation!
In the beginning of this pandemic, I understood the fear factor. The unknown has apprehension written all over it, but as things progressed I began to see that fear was being used as a tool to stifle conversation, inclusion, fellowship, trust, respect for differing opinions, and eventually the condemnation of normalcy and love of life. That’s a big deal folks! Science was not allowed to be science–mercurial. Were doctors & scientists allowed to observe and experiment to gain wisdom and then tell the anxious public their findings? Did you ever see or hear two differing opinions on the Corona Virus? So I say……..NOT SO FAST!
Did any of you have a loved one enter a hospital all alone because you were mandated that you couldn’t be at their bed side while they were sick? I did and thus the reason why I’m shouting from the rooftops–NOT SO FAST! I want you to think about this for a minute……..what if that loved one is your baby, 2 year old, High Schooler, husband, wife, mom, dad, brother, sister and you would never see them alive again after they were admitted to a hospital or medical institution? Think about that! The ambulance pulls away and that’s it. No holding their hand at their most vulnerable time? No talking, praying, comforting, advising when they are most afraid? Many died alone and scared. NOT SO FAST……..not in my world!
I asked myself…….why do the doctors, nurses, medical technicians, janitors, cafeteria workers, EMT’s, hospital personnel all come and go from their hospitals every day without the same mandates as the rest of us? Why aren’t essential workers susceptible to the same viruses as you and I? Essential workers get to go home, be with their families, go to the stores, etc., yet we can’t be with a dying relative while doing the same thing? Hummmmm ………and this my friend is where wisdom kicks in. You look, listen, analyze and see that following the rules month, after month, after month, after month, after month, after month, after month, after month, after month, after month (that’s 10 months to date) was an experiment that will end when? ………..and that is why I am not so anxious to move on to 2021. I want answers. I want to understand why politicians & healthcare bureaucrats closed down the world. I want to know why when doctors started figuring out solutions and medicines that would create a 99% cure rate, why they weren’t allowed to speak to the world about their miraculous solutions on TV. I want to put fear behind me. I want to return to normal, but above all I want the media to explain why they were so fast to not ask questions and seek the truth………and so my friends, I have made a new New Year’s resolution. I plan to find answers and implement solutions. Stay tuned…….. Happy New Year!